I only found out 7 days ago that I would be on Leg 22, sailing from Maine to Canada for one month. Uncle Nainoa called and said, "Get your passport and pack your bags." I thought, is this for real?
Then my mind turned to waves: What do I want to teach? Which classes am I going to call when I'm onboard? What will I want to say? How many experiments am I going to do? How can I work with as many people as possible? Will I have enough time? How does it feel to sail in cold weather?
There are so many possibilities and experiences that will happen that I cannot plan for. I've been finding myself here a lot lately. It's like Kanaloa saying, Welcome back to my realm. I've learned it's ok to not know everything or every detail. It's ok if I only fulfill two out of the 5 goals I personally set for myself. Wa'a definitely strengthens my faith, being comfortable with the unknown. Faith that what is supposed to happen will happen; that I will always be taken care of in any situation.
I just want to get on the plane and start already so I don't need to feel anxious anymore. So I remind myself to use my last four days wisely, to prepare and to see the people I need to see. Meditating on thankfulness because Uncle Billy said, "the hook was for you."
Kumu Kaʻai previously taught at Kānehūnāmoku Voyaging Academy and Hawaiian Studies at Wilson Elementary School to K-5 students.